-Diana is bored now. Entertain me:(
I said
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
I LOVE YOU ,NO MORE
you say move on but where do i go??
-Diana is bored now. Entertain me:(
I saidi love you
-Diana is bored now. Entertain me:(
I said
Emptiness
你是无形的伤口。
Argh.
Sometimes i feel like slapping myself.
Right inside my heart, i told myself that if one day his girlfriend broke up with him and so coincidentally, i happen to saw him and have a chat. how good will it be?
Will he still come back to me after he broke up with her?
I HAVE THE LOWEST EQ IN THIS WORLD.
I know he don't even care for my feelings when he got a new girl but yet im thinking of being back with him.
I SUCK!
but but, i seriously hope he won't come back to me or contact me even after break up.
I know he is definately not the one im looking for, if i say i want to be back. maybe because i have too much memories of I and him.
Just now webcam with Eugene. 1992.HAHA.
A small boy that is kinda cute.
I need love. its not desperate
But i am just someone that need someone to be always there for me.
I think a boyfriend must be someone that makes u feel proud of.
The right one, can you please hurry appear.
Love is never to ask for, but i don't trust fate and destiny at all.
and shit!!! i print screen but then i copy other link then i couldnt save the pictures of webcamming.
KRIS ALLEN ROCKS!
Argh.
Sometimes i feel like slapping myself.
Right inside my heart, i told myself that if one day his girlfriend broke up with him and so coincidentally, i happen to saw him and have a chat. how good will it be?
Will he still come back to me after he broke up with her?
I HAVE THE LOWEST EQ IN THIS WORLD.
I know he don't even care for my feelings when he got a new girl but yet im thinking of being back with him.
I SUCK!
but but, i seriously hope he won't come back to me or contact me even after break up.
I know he is definately not the one im looking for, if i say i want to be back. maybe because i have too much memories of I and him.
Just now webcam with Eugene. 1992.HAHA.
A small boy that is kinda cute.
I need love. its not desperate
But i am just someone that need someone to be always there for me.
I think a boyfriend must be someone that makes u feel proud of.
The right one, can you please hurry appear.
Love is never to ask for, but i don't trust fate and destiny at all.
and shit!!! i print screen but then i copy other link then i couldnt save the pictures of webcamming.
KRIS ALLEN ROCKS!
Sunday, October 4, 2009
暗恋- David Tao
This song by david tao is AWESOME!
Whats the feelings of carrying a torch for someone but yet you keep it to yourself?
I think i like this guy, i think so.
* He is so quiet and kinda shy, i think?
I know him through one of my friend, in another way, i just add him on facebook!
Hmm, i add him because i think he look kinda good? Haha.humans are blinded by visual look.
He is quite a nice guy but i am always the one that talks alot.
I just see him 4 times and i am hoping for more. though both i and him seem to come from differen world and i know im not his type.
Yea, i look his look. but i know he is not the kind of guy i really want. i want those that will make cute faces to me, but i suppose he wont.
i really know nothing about him.
but that day i told him to come out cos i intend to tell him how i feel. but he said he isnt free.
I think more or less he knew the reason for me wanting to see him, that was an avoidance, i think?
I love to see him online. but the number of times we chatted is less than 15 times?
and even when i start the conver, he always reply in one or few words.
so i asked him personality questions, thinking at least i can know him better?
But he asked why do i like to ask this type of questions.
HAHAS.that was pretty awkward. but that idiot will definately not know that actually im finding a chance and topic to talk to him.
I think he is too wild for me too?
He likes to club, i think?
And which girls like their boyfriend to do so? so yea, this can be kinda good reason for me to stop thinking.
- As long as i still like him, i wil find a chance to confess.
I will never hide my feelings.
Life is too short for regrets.
Whats the feelings of carrying a torch for someone but yet you keep it to yourself?
I think i like this guy, i think so.
* He is so quiet and kinda shy, i think?
I know him through one of my friend, in another way, i just add him on facebook!
Hmm, i add him because i think he look kinda good? Haha.humans are blinded by visual look.
He is quite a nice guy but i am always the one that talks alot.
I just see him 4 times and i am hoping for more. though both i and him seem to come from differen world and i know im not his type.
Yea, i look his look. but i know he is not the kind of guy i really want. i want those that will make cute faces to me, but i suppose he wont.
i really know nothing about him.
but that day i told him to come out cos i intend to tell him how i feel. but he said he isnt free.
I think more or less he knew the reason for me wanting to see him, that was an avoidance, i think?
I love to see him online. but the number of times we chatted is less than 15 times?
and even when i start the conver, he always reply in one or few words.
so i asked him personality questions, thinking at least i can know him better?
But he asked why do i like to ask this type of questions.
HAHAS.that was pretty awkward. but that idiot will definately not know that actually im finding a chance and topic to talk to him.
I think he is too wild for me too?
He likes to club, i think?
And which girls like their boyfriend to do so? so yea, this can be kinda good reason for me to stop thinking.
- As long as i still like him, i wil find a chance to confess.
I will never hide my feelings.
Life is too short for regrets.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
:)
It was around midnight that my brother's girlfriend called me.
after talking to her, she told me that my brother's friend told him that i seems to be troubled because i wrote many posts in facebook about the failed relationship.
After hanging up the call, i cried. i feel so bad for causing my brother to worried,
however, after crying, i no longer feel sad about that guy anymore. i can finally walk off from the nightmare.
Kor. thanks for being such a wonderful brother.
I find it hard to tell you this personally, cause i find it really mushy.
but really, i thanks god for letting me having such a caring brother like you.
I really do not feel sad anymore,
your sister, can na de qi, fang de xia. after this, i really realised that family is so important.
As well as friends, those who concern and encourage me, i will also remember it.
Also, thanks alot to the pretty girl , my brother's girlfriend, Natalie.
And thanks lynn, i think if not for you, i wouldnt have walk through the 'sadness' part of my life so quickly.
Also, thanks Vanessa~ hahas(:
thanks for being such a great friend, really.
I don't know what to say, since ure a girl, if ure a guy then it will be different luh. hahas.
but i really appreciate all the things u have done.
when i don't have the courage to speak to him, ure the one that help me and side me.
Thank you,
A Big THANK YOU to all the people that i love,
p.s: he is really cute(:
hahas
after talking to her, she told me that my brother's friend told him that i seems to be troubled because i wrote many posts in facebook about the failed relationship.
After hanging up the call, i cried. i feel so bad for causing my brother to worried,
however, after crying, i no longer feel sad about that guy anymore. i can finally walk off from the nightmare.
Kor. thanks for being such a wonderful brother.
I find it hard to tell you this personally, cause i find it really mushy.
but really, i thanks god for letting me having such a caring brother like you.
I really do not feel sad anymore,
your sister, can na de qi, fang de xia. after this, i really realised that family is so important.
As well as friends, those who concern and encourage me, i will also remember it.
Also, thanks alot to the pretty girl , my brother's girlfriend, Natalie.
And thanks lynn, i think if not for you, i wouldnt have walk through the 'sadness' part of my life so quickly.
Also, thanks Vanessa~ hahas(:
thanks for being such a great friend, really.
I don't know what to say, since ure a girl, if ure a guy then it will be different luh. hahas.
but i really appreciate all the things u have done.
when i don't have the courage to speak to him, ure the one that help me and side me.
Thank you,
A Big THANK YOU to all the people that i love,
p.s: he is really cute(:
hahas
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Bleeding
i listen to so many love songs and everyone just reminds me of you.
do you know how hurt am i now?
i really understand that no matter how i cry now, i cant change the fact now, but do you know how tough it is?
i really miss you alot and alot.
i just to make us works.
please tell me you still love me, even if you dont, i am willing to do anything to make u change ur mind.
you know i am so foolish to think that if the girl dint appear, everything is possible.
but i cant blame or hate the girl, becfause ure the one that can so fast forget about me and find her.
to be frank, im not so noble to the extend that i will bless you, but neither will i curse ur new relationship. treat her well and everything will goes on smoothly
do you know how hurt am i now?
i really understand that no matter how i cry now, i cant change the fact now, but do you know how tough it is?
i really miss you alot and alot.
i just to make us works.
please tell me you still love me, even if you dont, i am willing to do anything to make u change ur mind.
you know i am so foolish to think that if the girl dint appear, everything is possible.
but i cant blame or hate the girl, becfause ure the one that can so fast forget about me and find her.
to be frank, im not so noble to the extend that i will bless you, but neither will i curse ur new relationship. treat her well and everything will goes on smoothly
14/7/09
I went to find him on 14/7
with hope, and feeling anxious and nervous, i waiting at the stairs.
i did not call him or sms him because i dun want him to know that im there.
seeing the slipper outside his hse, i assume that he wear sneaker to school, so i did not press the bell. while waiting, his step mum came out and then i call her, she wanted to help me to open the door, i said" will guo qiang dun like?'
she said' nevermind' and then when she was about to open the door, she told me that there is a girl inside. can u believe it?
i pretended to be strong. but while in the lift, when the stepmum asked do i still like him? i kept quiet. she said. he is not worth it. she said i could find better guy but these words just cant make me feel better.
after saying goodbye to her, i cried and i really think thats the end of like, i called vanessa. i really cant believe it, really. him having a new gf has never come to my thoughts. so when i noe the truth, i just couldnt accept. i went to find vann and started crying,and we think of many things of what to say to him afterthat.after that, we headed to his hse. we waited and waited.... then lift open! he came out with the girl. the girl look at me,but i dint not speak anything, seeing how he look at me, he must be shocked then. well, vann asked him to come out and she talk to him. i hear what they said, as im sitting at storey 9 staircvase. he is staying at level 8. he might think that i did not heard what he said. when i was hearing their conversation, i got urges to shout at him and tell him to shut his mouth, overall, he stop liking me is becos of the girl, am i right? i hate him. and foolishly, i wanted to wait for his gf to go so i can speak to him and telling him i stil love him. what am i thinking?
Really, these few days are tough for me. i fear of sleeping cos i feel empty and sad. i hate all those songs as it recalled my memories but i want to listen , so what am i thinking?
I feel that he have did wrong to me. but yesterday i thought thru, i am the one to blame to. i am the one that causes him to leave me. but he shld have noe that i still love him when i still go and fibnd him after we brk up right? and we still behave like couple after breaking up, and my heart know that i cant find other guy cos i still love him.
but yea, if he nvr tot of being tgther back, why did he bother to come and find me then?
i guess our actions just gave me the wrong idea.
but all i can is.. he is not at fault. i am the one that refuses to let go.
he alr said:' lets be friends in the past'
sorry for all those words that i said to you. i really understand u already tried to minimise the pain of hurting me, i really do.
I really want to say, ure the first guy tat i ever love, trust me.
when i said i will die for u in the past, i really meant it. its not just words.
'No one will love you as much as i used to'
'No one will cook porridge for you, when ure sick as i used to'
'No one will purposely buy u food and walk to ur house to pass it to you'
'No one will quarrelled with her mum just because i hate it when my mum said ure short'
'No one will ever catch the last bus to find you'
'No one will walk the streets in the middle of the night just to go and find you'
'No one will don't mind the height difference between us'
'No one have ever touched me, until you.'
'No one will let me feel loved, until you.'
'No one will knew me ,until you'
I cant say that i will wait for you till the end. because i cant promise so confidently that i will never fall in love with someone else while waiitng. im not hoping that u will break up with ur new gf, but i really want u to know, im preparing for myself for any future possible outcomes.
i really think that its hard for us to be together and i realy enjoy ur accompany all this long, it has never change, i really dun want u to be just a passerby in my life, i really want to be with you till the end of like,you really let me have the urge to love u, no one else let me feel that up to now.
You're really a great guy.
bear with my nonsense and unreasonable personality.
I really hope fate can bring us together back in the future.
I really cant let you go.
I know there is nth like,cant live without someone, but i know life without you, will be miserable.
when i think of nagging at you, seeing ur adorable face, buying u food and listening to ur terrible singing and having to sleep besides you, and going to find you whenever im free as possible is no longer my job or my responsibilites now, i feel so....
i really know its my fault for causing the brk up.
but to be fair, its aint all my fault too.
i started to go out with guys is after we broke up, i believe when i told you that, and u giving me the reaction, is because u cant accept right? maybe this word' break up' often come out from my word, so u think im not serious abut that, so u think i betrayed u and so u give up on us.
But i really want you to trust me, i really never like other guy after breaking up with you.
i went to find you that day, is because i wanted to give u a surprise, but then, i was shocked to find out that u got a new gf.
do u know how foolish am i?
when i sms you, i was hoping you wil reply and then tell me to be back agin.
i was so naive.
and yesterday, i actually went to ur hse bus stop hoping to see you.
today, same thing, i started to take bus to school from ur hse there.because i was hoping to see you. i know u wouldnt want to see me, but i really miss you.
Since, everythig about us has ended.
i got nothing to say anymore.
but all those memories is still storage in my memory. i will never want to forget, i just hope it will slowly fade so i cant rem all details and less pain on me.
I hope to see you in the future with a new one.
I really hope to be with you in the future.
I really love you truthfully, ure more impt than myself.
Family, You is my top priority,
' i fear to sleep because i will cry and think of you, having the urge to sneak out to find you, but i know u wouldnt want to see me'
'I hope that my presence that day wun cause ur gf to quarrel with you'
Take care.
with hope, and feeling anxious and nervous, i waiting at the stairs.
i did not call him or sms him because i dun want him to know that im there.
seeing the slipper outside his hse, i assume that he wear sneaker to school, so i did not press the bell. while waiting, his step mum came out and then i call her, she wanted to help me to open the door, i said" will guo qiang dun like?'
she said' nevermind' and then when she was about to open the door, she told me that there is a girl inside. can u believe it?
i pretended to be strong. but while in the lift, when the stepmum asked do i still like him? i kept quiet. she said. he is not worth it. she said i could find better guy but these words just cant make me feel better.
after saying goodbye to her, i cried and i really think thats the end of like, i called vanessa. i really cant believe it, really. him having a new gf has never come to my thoughts. so when i noe the truth, i just couldnt accept. i went to find vann and started crying,and we think of many things of what to say to him afterthat.after that, we headed to his hse. we waited and waited.... then lift open! he came out with the girl. the girl look at me,but i dint not speak anything, seeing how he look at me, he must be shocked then. well, vann asked him to come out and she talk to him. i hear what they said, as im sitting at storey 9 staircvase. he is staying at level 8. he might think that i did not heard what he said. when i was hearing their conversation, i got urges to shout at him and tell him to shut his mouth, overall, he stop liking me is becos of the girl, am i right? i hate him. and foolishly, i wanted to wait for his gf to go so i can speak to him and telling him i stil love him. what am i thinking?
Really, these few days are tough for me. i fear of sleeping cos i feel empty and sad. i hate all those songs as it recalled my memories but i want to listen , so what am i thinking?
I feel that he have did wrong to me. but yesterday i thought thru, i am the one to blame to. i am the one that causes him to leave me. but he shld have noe that i still love him when i still go and fibnd him after we brk up right? and we still behave like couple after breaking up, and my heart know that i cant find other guy cos i still love him.
but yea, if he nvr tot of being tgther back, why did he bother to come and find me then?
i guess our actions just gave me the wrong idea.
but all i can is.. he is not at fault. i am the one that refuses to let go.
he alr said:' lets be friends in the past'
sorry for all those words that i said to you. i really understand u already tried to minimise the pain of hurting me, i really do.
I really want to say, ure the first guy tat i ever love, trust me.
when i said i will die for u in the past, i really meant it. its not just words.
'No one will love you as much as i used to'
'No one will cook porridge for you, when ure sick as i used to'
'No one will purposely buy u food and walk to ur house to pass it to you'
'No one will quarrelled with her mum just because i hate it when my mum said ure short'
'No one will ever catch the last bus to find you'
'No one will walk the streets in the middle of the night just to go and find you'
'No one will don't mind the height difference between us'
'No one have ever touched me, until you.'
'No one will let me feel loved, until you.'
'No one will knew me ,until you'
I cant say that i will wait for you till the end. because i cant promise so confidently that i will never fall in love with someone else while waiitng. im not hoping that u will break up with ur new gf, but i really want u to know, im preparing for myself for any future possible outcomes.
i really think that its hard for us to be together and i realy enjoy ur accompany all this long, it has never change, i really dun want u to be just a passerby in my life, i really want to be with you till the end of like,you really let me have the urge to love u, no one else let me feel that up to now.
You're really a great guy.
bear with my nonsense and unreasonable personality.
I really hope fate can bring us together back in the future.
I really cant let you go.
I know there is nth like,cant live without someone, but i know life without you, will be miserable.
when i think of nagging at you, seeing ur adorable face, buying u food and listening to ur terrible singing and having to sleep besides you, and going to find you whenever im free as possible is no longer my job or my responsibilites now, i feel so....
i really know its my fault for causing the brk up.
but to be fair, its aint all my fault too.
i started to go out with guys is after we broke up, i believe when i told you that, and u giving me the reaction, is because u cant accept right? maybe this word' break up' often come out from my word, so u think im not serious abut that, so u think i betrayed u and so u give up on us.
But i really want you to trust me, i really never like other guy after breaking up with you.
i went to find you that day, is because i wanted to give u a surprise, but then, i was shocked to find out that u got a new gf.
do u know how foolish am i?
when i sms you, i was hoping you wil reply and then tell me to be back agin.
i was so naive.
and yesterday, i actually went to ur hse bus stop hoping to see you.
today, same thing, i started to take bus to school from ur hse there.because i was hoping to see you. i know u wouldnt want to see me, but i really miss you.
Since, everythig about us has ended.
i got nothing to say anymore.
but all those memories is still storage in my memory. i will never want to forget, i just hope it will slowly fade so i cant rem all details and less pain on me.
I hope to see you in the future with a new one.
I really hope to be with you in the future.
I really love you truthfully, ure more impt than myself.
Family, You is my top priority,
' i fear to sleep because i will cry and think of you, having the urge to sneak out to find you, but i know u wouldnt want to see me'
'I hope that my presence that day wun cause ur gf to quarrel with you'
Take care.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
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